This entry talks about death.  Loss of a parent, loss of a friend, and suicide. If this will trigger you in any way, please maybe skip the first two sections.

This will be a long one (that's what she said) since this will serve as an update of the goings on of the last 12 months.  A lot has happened; a Lot has changed.  I can't tell you how many times I have been somewhere and had an idea for this.  I have multiple entries in the note's app of my phone, and I am sure many more hand-written entries floating around.  The problem is that I always get my ideas when I am not home and not in front of a computer, I can put things on, then by the time I am in a place that I can add an entry, I forgot that I wrote something and/or lost what I wrote, oh yeah and I probably forgot that I wanted to make an entry.  I apologize for this.